It Doesn’t Feel Good Anymore

I need a break cause the social media doesn’t feel good anymore. Just listened to Bomani Jones and Michael Smith on Bomani’s podcast and I just realize that I need to move away from the dopamine hit that I count on from social media. I don’t need to look at it. I also need to stop feeling that the only way I can be part of positive social activism comes from social media. That is not the only way I can make a change in my life. That’s not the only way I can get better.

I started paying the wildly expensive $12 a month for Squarespace to keep me off of twitter and IG, but it’s not working. I need to make it work. I like texting, I like seeing friends, I can also see more friends than I expected. I actually get too much dopamine, I get too much feedback, why do I want more. I got on twitter to get on things like the radio. Now I’m on the radio, but I have to stay on twitter to stay engaged and make sure people listen to the radio. But I think I can see the limits to that. And in addition to that, I just need to recalibrate, it used to be easy to know that I was on social media as a necessary duty to do my other music, but I don’t get to say that anymore. I’m on twitter for the feedback and the positivity. I’m on twitter to learn from people, to see people say good shit about me. I need to find a way to be inspired by thinkers, artists without the social media channel. I can find that. I also don’t have to make a monster statement every time I’m on my own website. Cool, this all wrapped up, what a treat.