It’s Okay to Go Slower

I’m paying the thirteen dollars a month on the website mainly to keep me off twitter and it’s not working. I had vacation from my job at MPR all last week but it was impossible to look away. It would not be an understatement to say that all the shit hit all the fans at my job. I also have a friend facing serious health issues right now. So it wasn’t the staycation you might imagine. I didn’t order in pizza and walk around downtown. I did a couple projects around the house including painting my porch, I worked on my solo album, I did a little work for Trivia Mafia and I watched Slack channels blow up at my job.

It wasn’t a fun week, and this week isn’t sizing up to be fun. I will find some fun, I will have fun with my kids. But there is terrible shit going on right now in my life and in everyone’s life. There are billions of people who have it notably harder than me at every turn. But I am hitting plenty of struggles right now and it feels terrible. That doesn’t mean I won’t get past it, that doesn’t mean I won’t figure it out. But things are going to be slower for awhile.

I have to work fast this week because I have a lot of demands at work, but I’m going to make my way. But I’m going to stop wondering why there s so much stress. There just is, I need to fight it when I can, but sometimes it’s okay to go slower.

I did on my vacation get a chance a couple times to really slow down. I sat inside a bar (first time for me) and drank three drinks and watched an NBA game. That was wonderful. The joy of hearing humans talk, of hearing the bartender job flirty say “I hope we’ll see you back here again soon”. There is so much magic when humans are just around each other.

But it is okay to go slow, I promise.